This show was very, very tough for me. I fully expected to place. I made little adjustments from the past show and really felt like my body/complexion was spot on. I knew my posing was still a little shaky. I had the steps down, but still needed some flair.
After the show bawled my eyes out. I wasn't sure what to do different. I competed in 3 categories and wasn't good enough to finish top 5 in a single one.
Knowing I had a show the following week my cheat meal was 'supposed' to only be a steak and a sweet potato, but I overate big time. Saturday night I had nachos, pretzels, 1/2 a burger, and 1/2 a dessert. The food indulgence continued into Sunday.
Monday I decided to stop feeling sorry for myself and get back on the horse. My coach told me I would be fine as long as I sweated my butt off to cut the sodium. That's exactly what I did.
Frankly, I am so sick of hearing I don't have enough muscle definition but that I have very strong conditioning. Okay, so I agree I need more muscle but shouldn't a little bit of a lack of muscle still be better than training with an obvious sloppy diet? I saw girls winning that clearly had cellulite on their thighs.
My poor coach and the emails she must get! So thankful for her!
Post Show 3:
Well, I didn't place, again. I did in masters but not in open. I'm really not sure why I didn't place in open, but I am not willing to beat myself up. I felt amazing, I definitely felt like I had one of the best bodies, and while my posing was a little fast I felt great.
I'm not getting upset this time. I knows body was rocking, but I also know there seems to be no rhyme or reason to their judging. A girl that beat a girl in open lost to that same girl in novice. That shouldn't even be possible.
I'm choosing to focus on me and what I can improve. I do wish my evening performance would have been my morning. I nailed it. Work bitch came on. I told myself relax and forget everyone is out there. Just you and the music. My husband said I never looked better on stage. I took my time. I nailed the poses and I looked great. Was happy to hear that and will remember for next time.
I don't think I will do novice anymore. It seems like a waste of money. There honestly seems to be no standards to their judging. I'm really questioning these local shows period. They seem to be very very locally promoter driven.
I'm ready to start my new plan tomorrow!! While I am scared of adding weight I am ready to bring on this phase of filling out a little and making overall improvements...
